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[getfeldsparred]

No, no, it was jarring at all. I was scared at first, yeah, but…

You made me feel safe. That’s all I needed.

[agardener]

I'm glad of that, Feldspar. You were a joyful pebble. But - I didn't realize you had been so ill.

[getfeldsparred]

[Oh. Pebble. Their voice hitches.]

Yeah - yeah, hatched early, stunted lungs. I, um, yeah, I almost didn’t make it.

[agardener]

I'm glad you did. I'm glad you are here.

[getfeldsparred]

It says a lot about my choices though; that’s what Gneiss used to say.

[agardener]

What did they mean by that?

[getfeldsparred]

All I ever wanted was to play outside like the other hatchlings. Gneiss thought I might be overcompensating for missed time.

[agardener]

Well, you certainly have proven your health in all that you've accomplished, my friend.

[getfeldsparred]

Thank you, buddy. I mean it. I know I was a handful.

Are you okay?

[agardener]

You were, but most juveniles are.

I am -

I don't know.

[getfeldsparred]

Well that ain’t good.

What don’t you know?

[agardener]

Feelings are new for me.

I am sad.

[getfeldsparred]

[There's a pause, and their tone shifts.]

Why're you sad, Sym?

[agardener]

Perhaps I am faced too much with mortality here. And how my life does not change, even here. Stability used to be a comfort.

[getfeldsparred]

Do you wish it changed?

[agardener]

I don't know. What would change, I wonder.

[getfeldsparred]

Did you ever think about what it would be like to be young or age?

[agardener]

I have been a juvenile before.

[getfeldsparred]

But a real juvenile who needed someone to take care of you, not just a younger version of yourself.

[agardener]

I wasn't a younger version of myself. I was - juvenile flora. Fauna. Elderly, too. All of the life cycles, over and over and over again.

But no.

I have never needed help.

[getfeldsparred]

Not nurtured though, that’s my point. You never had…

Geez.

[They exhale a little.]

You’ve never been little needed someone to hold your hand or bandage a cut or tell you that it’s just thunder, everything’s alright.

I never realized it wasn’t something everyone had.

[agardener]

No. But it seems like such a pivotal part of development. I was simply - written.

[getfeldsparred]

It makes you feel....

[Hm.]

It makes you feel like you do or be anything, because you know someone's there to catch you when you fall.